Jun. 28th, 2019 03:03 pm
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beast_belowI'm terrible with radio silence. Been having a hell of a time just existing, much less anything else. Just going to try and vomit up some kind of summary.
Not been doing great, health-wise. Depression spike has been particularly bad. Trying to really treat that for the first time and results have been... mixed. Also, officially diagnosed with lupus after ten years of struggling. Having a diagnosis is great, unless they decide to go "lol nope nevermind." Again. For the fourth time.
Still haven't been able to get any real support for pain. When I directly said to my rheumatologist that I need help with pain management, he literally told me he didn't know what I was asking him. I don't know if he is just that bad with interpersonal communication, or if he was trying to force me to ask for painkillers so he could write me off as "drug-seeking."
Oh and speaking of being written off as drug-seeking, my therapist of several years wants me to try medicating my anxiety with a PRN, but there are some murmurs that my medical doctors are against prescribing them just as a rule.
Officially graduated, for what that's worth. Onto job-hunting, which only adds to my stress. I have no idea if my health will allow me to hold a job, but I don't really have much in the way of alternatives.
Just trying to get through this right now, even if the future seems very bleak.
Not been doing great, health-wise. Depression spike has been particularly bad. Trying to really treat that for the first time and results have been... mixed. Also, officially diagnosed with lupus after ten years of struggling. Having a diagnosis is great, unless they decide to go "lol nope nevermind." Again. For the fourth time.
Still haven't been able to get any real support for pain. When I directly said to my rheumatologist that I need help with pain management, he literally told me he didn't know what I was asking him. I don't know if he is just that bad with interpersonal communication, or if he was trying to force me to ask for painkillers so he could write me off as "drug-seeking."
Oh and speaking of being written off as drug-seeking, my therapist of several years wants me to try medicating my anxiety with a PRN, but there are some murmurs that my medical doctors are against prescribing them just as a rule.
Officially graduated, for what that's worth. Onto job-hunting, which only adds to my stress. I have no idea if my health will allow me to hold a job, but I don't really have much in the way of alternatives.
Just trying to get through this right now, even if the future seems very bleak.
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